Today, my Chris is taking precious Parker out for lunch. Parker doesn’t know this yet. At lunch, when she is preparing to make her way down to the basement cafeteria and dig into her humdrum lunch she brought from home, she will get a nice surprise. Her Daddy will be waiting for her. Her Daddy will be taking her to a little Kiosk down the street from school that sells her favorite, Kebab sandwiches. It’s unexpected.
This morning as I was sipping my coffee, eating my oats and yogurt, and reading from the Bible, I was wondering what God looks like. Weird, I know. The Bible says that no one has seen the face of God. But, sometimes my imagination gets the best of me and I just want to know what God looks like.
I’m kind of at a cross-road. I’m kinda at a place that I don’t know what to do next. And, since my schedule has been freed up by Libby’s new school hours, I’m putting this pressure on myself to perform. Do something. Get busy. Produce.
That feeling doesn’t set well. It stresses me out. It robs me of stillness. It makes me feel guilty. If I know anything at all, I do know that those feelings do not align themselves with what I know God to be like. He doesn’t author stress or rob me of stillness nor does he throw quilt trips my way.
When I sit quietly in my living room, in my big blue chair, and I wrap my cold hands around my hot mug of strong Austrian coffee, I am at rest. It’s not so much the living room, big blue chair or coffee (although … coffee does make everything better!). It’s more of whose company I am in. When I am still, when I open the Bible, and when I open my heart to whatever it is that the Creator of the Universe wants to share with me from His guidebook … I am quiet and still and focused.
This morning I have no answers. I don’t know what is next. I don’t know what to put into my freed up schedule. But, as I finished reading some really good things … my thoughts took me back to my precious Parker … and her surprise lunch date with her Daddy.
Then, after a really big smile came to my face, I had an answer. It was unexpected. This picture of my Chris surprising precious Parker … just because … to encourage her … is what God looks like. He (God) does not determine what He does for me based on the things I can do. He (God) loves me because I am his daughter. That, today, is what God looks like to me.
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It is amazing isn't it, after stillness, learning to be passive before Him and let Him lead, He actually does! Praying your next steps become clear and looking forward to hearing what they are:)
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